She Would Not Be There For Me

She would not be there for me when I need someone - 
My therapist flat out, blatantly told me that.
And then asked if she was being too blunt, too forward.
No, no she was not. I'm glad she spoke the truth.

I always knew this at my core. 

I only pretended otherwise.

I hoped otherwise.

I hope that hope will be reformed to painless acceptance that she won't.

May I still love her - but with loving boundaries.

May I still care about her, but only how God wants me to.

May I still love my other friends, even the one who seems to be back again,

Because I think she's afraid of her relationship ending.

They fight a lot. They have for a long time - all this year for sure.

I'm glad they are comfortable in front of me, but it's awkward.

At least this friend would try to be there for me.

I really like them both. I don't want things to change.

All our lives are a phase, no matter how long we live.

There is hope in the world, as long as God is here.

Where are You, God?

What is Your plan for all of our lives?