Monday, May 30, 2022

He Lost His Chance

I went to my parents' church today, 
For the first time since December 2019.
I was excited, and actually liked this pastor.
(And I don't like many pastors.)

My sister and brother-in-law are in town,
And one of my mom's friends came
Who brought her eleven-year-old granddaughter
And a friend of hers.

It started out alright,
Remembering those lost,
But then it took a weird turn.
And - which I did not expect from him - it turned political.

The topic was murder,
And he spent the second half of the time
Talking against abortion. 
He even brought in a political activist.

The basic message was, 
"If you have an abortion, you are a murderer."
He gave no evidence, no proof,
Nor adequately addressed any other sides of the issue.

My mother's friend took the two tweens and walked out of the service.
Afterwards, my mom even said that if she had known the topic,
She would not have invited her this Sunday,
Which, to me, says something about a church.

He lost her. He lost his chance to show Christ to her.

After the service, my brother-in-law - 
Who is much more conservative than I am - 
Said there were multiple lines crossed,
And discussed them on the way home.

He cited several straw man arguments,
And what this kind of teaching can lead to - 
Such as insurrections for a certain political party.
He laid out things in ways most people cannot. 

They do not live here, but they were still turned off.
They go to church every Sunday, and 
In many ways are fairly conservative.
Yet my sister even commented how he missed the mark.

He left out medical issues, any exceptions.
He contained a religious rhetoric,
And did not explore the complete picture.
He only reached those who completely agree with him.

He lost them. He lost the chance to invigorate them.

I had promised God I would go - 
And He released me from going.
I probably should have listened,
But I would have heard anyways.

In some ways, it was better that I was there. 
To see, hear, and experience it first hand,
And not just get second hand information that made me mad.
This is a very passionate subject for me.

I almost walked out, but I did not drive myself.
And I wanted to finish - even if by sheer will. 
At the end I stood there with a hand on my hip, 
Shaking my head with how out of touch these people are.

He lost me. 

My brother - the real smartest person I will ever know - 
Heard all of this first from our conservative brother-in-law,
And then in conjunction with our sister, 
Before he ever got to anything I thought.

He lost his chance of ever getting him to grace his presence at that church.

Our father is conflicted,
And though our mother is not so much,
Her friend is turned off,
And both were not expecting what happened.

So what happened?
That I really do not know but am sorely disappointed.




Thursday, May 26, 2022

Perspective

Tonight I went out with my brother and a friend,
And she gave me a bag of birthday gifts.
Which I forgot. At the bar.
At least I got the bracelet, because I put it on.

I am so mad at myself. 
I called them I think 7 times. 
No one picked up.
I left a voicemail. 

It wasn't busy when we left;
I can only pray it was found by staff,
Who will hold it for the person to whom it belongs.
I don't trust people. But I know God will use any outcome.

It was raining, a dreary day.
It started off rough, where I accidentally
Texted in a group text about tonight.
Only one of the friends was invited.

I do not feel bad about seeing the other friend without her,
But I did feel bad about the text. 
She figured it out, I'm sure.
But I am not responsible for her happiness.

My mom reminded me to put it in perspective -
(I may have wanted to drive back there to see if I could get it.)
In the end, it is only material things - 
(But it is special because of who gave it to me!)

But they are material things that can be replaced.
Even though it will be embarrassing
Since I don't know the brands of any of it,
So I would have to ask her for it and pay.

And I don't want her to feel disappointed in me
(That will be inevitable, but still, plenty of time for that!)
In the end, people are more important than things.
I was focused on them, not the gifts, as I left.

In the end, presence means more to me than material things.





Friday, May 13, 2022

A Castle On The Hill

She has a castle on the hill,
A place all her own, in a good part of town.
A spacious bedroom, with all new furniture.
A whole house she decorated on her own.

But she has no one to sleep with her,
No one to spend her life with,
Day in and day out.
No one to vent to every night.

She has very pretty stuff,
Which she very much likes.
A nice guest bedroom,
And an extra for her passion.

But she is missing community.
Community brought on by thinking of others,
Rather than just of oneself.
Community that involves living together.

She has everything many have dreamed of,
But not what she truly craves.
Her friends cannot be a replacement.
No matter how hard she tries.



Wednesday, May 11, 2022

Is He Worthy?

Do you feel the world is broken?
(We do)
Do you feel the shadows deepen?
(We do)
But do you know that all the dark won't
Stop the light from getting through?
(We do)
Do you wish that you could see it all made new?
(We do)
Is all creation groaning?
(It is)
Is a new creation coming?
(It is)
Is the glory of the Lord to be the light within our midst?
(It is)
Is it good that we remind ourselves of this?
(It is)
Is anyone worthy? Is anyone whole?
Is anyone able to break the seal and open the scroll?
The Lion of Judah who conquered the grave
He was David's root and the Lamb who died to ransom the slave
Is He worthy? Is He worthy?
Of all blessing and honor and glory
Is He worthy of this?
He is
Does the Father truly love us?
(He does)
Does the Spirit move among us?
(He does)
And does Jesus, our Messiah hold forever those He loves?
(He does)
Does our God intend to dwell again with us?
(He does)
Is anyone worthy?
Is anyone whole?
Is anyone able to break the seal and open the scroll?
The Lion of Judah who conquered the grave
He is David's root and the Lamb who died to ransom the slave
From every people and tribe
Every nation and tongue
He has made us a kingdom and priests to God
To reign with the Son
Is He worthy? Is He worthy?
Of all blessing and honor and glory
Is He worthy? Is He worthy?
Is He worthy of this?
He is!
Is He worthy? Is He worthy?
He is!
He is!
Source: Musixmatch
Songwriters: Andrew Peterson / Ben Shive
Is He Worthy? lyrics © Junkbox Music, Capitol Cmg Genesis, Vamos Publishing