I Will Trust In You

Letting go of every single dream
I lay each one down at Your feet
Every moment of my wandering
Never changes what You see
I've tried to win this war, I confess
My hands are weary, I need Your rest
Mighty warrior, King of the fight
No matter what I face, You're by my side

When You don't move the mountains
I'm needing You to move
When You don't part the waters
I wish I could walk through
When You don't give the answers
As I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust
I will trust in You

Truth is, You know what tomorrow brings
There's not a day ahead You have not seen
So in all things be my life and breath
I want what You want, Lord, and nothing less

When You don't move the mountains
I'm needing You to move
When You don't part the waters
I wish I could walk through
When You don't give the answers
As I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust
I will trust in You
I will trust in You

You are my strength and comfort
You are my steady hand
You are my firm foundation
The rock on which I stand
Your ways are always higher
Your plans are always good
There's not a place where I'll go
You've not already stood

When You don't move the mountains
I'm needing You to move
When You don't part the waters
I wish I could walk through
When You don't give the answers
As I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust
I will trust in You
I will trust in You
I will trust in You
I will trust in You

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Lauren Daigle / Paul Marbury / Michael Farren

Trust In You lyrics © DistroKid, Essential Music Publishing

She Has More to Fall

I care about her deeply,

But I know she has more to fall

Before she will truly seek help

And maybe seek all that she says she is looking for.

She falls prey to pretty words,

But knowingly or not,

She is a slave to her own emotions,

And this is where she is absolutely blinded.

I can't help her anymore,

I really tried my hardest.

I will always love her,

Even when I feel her drifting away.

Shortly after I met her I knew she was special,

In a different way than any other friends.

But now she is self destructive,

And now she does not care what anyone thinks.

I cannot help her, 

I cannot save her,

Even in the moments I want to so badly.

It is one of the hardest things about deep friendships. 

All I can do is give it to the One who made her,

Because only He can save her.

No matter where she ends up,

May He turn her world around to seek and know Him.

The Art of Anger

I have such pretty words sometimes,
But the truth is most often dark and dirty.

Today my anger has come to the surface - 

Not out, but bubbling up in my conscious. 

When I was in high school I got incredibly angry,

Mostly in interactions with my father,

And in recurring moments I was out of my body,

Looking down upon myself as if I was a separate entity. 

I didn't know what to do with it then,

And I still don't know what to do with it now.

I am at least in therapy again;

I just hope she can help me. 

The Art of Letting Go

From one of my prolific FB friends,
Who almost always posts spot on to what I need,

Who has thousands of FB friends,

So you never know who she is helping.

Yes, she is a she, and her initials are BMY.

I do not know the author of this post - it spread from person to person.

But it's something we all likely need to hear at some point,

Or at least those of us who are natural caregivers.

You can love others and still be at peace,

Care for others and grieve while being whole.

Because it is not dependent on others to fulfill you - 

It is up to you and the One who made you.

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My friend posted this from a woman named Dee Hollimon. Worth the read.

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My mom had a lot of problems. She did not sleep and she felt exhausted. She was irritable, grumpy, and bitter. She was always sick, until one day, suddenly, she changed.

One day my dad said to her:

- I've been looking for a job for three months and I haven't found anything, I'm going to have a few beers with friends.

My mom replied:

- It's okay.

My brother said to her:

- Mom, I'm doing poorly in all subjects at the University ...

My mom replied:

- Okay, you will recover, and if you don't, well, you repeat the semester, but you pay the tuition.

My sister said to her:

- Mom, I smashed the car.

My mom replied:

- Okay daughter, take it to the workshop, find how to pay and while they fix it, get around by bus or subway.

Her daughter-in-law said to her:

- Mother-in-law, I came to spend a few months with you.

My mom replied:

- Okay, settle in on the living room couch and look for some blankets in the closet.

All of us gathered, so worried to see these reactions coming from Mom. We suspected that she had gone to the doctor and that she was prescribed 1000 mg pills called "I don't give a damn."

Perhaps she was overdosing on these!

We then proposed to do an "intervention" to my mother to remove her from any possible addiction she had towards some anti-tantrum medication.

But what happened was a big surprise when we all gathered around her and my mom explained:

"It took me a long time to realize that each person is responsible for their life, it took me years to discover that my anguish, my mortification, my depression, my courage, my insomnia and my stress, did not solve their problems but aggravated mine.

I am not responsible for the actions of others, but I am responsible for the reactions I express to that.

Therefore, I came to the conclusion that my duty to myself is to remain calm and let each one solve what corresponds to them.

I have taken courses in yoga, meditation, miracles, human development, mental hygiene, vibration and neurolinguistic programming, and in all of them, I found a common denominator: finally they all lead to the same point.

And, it is that I can only interfere with myself, you have all the necessary resources to solve your own lives.

I can only give you my advice if you ask me and it depends on you to follow it or not.

So, from now on, I cease to be the receptacle of your responsibilities, the sack of your guilt, the laundress of your remorse, the advocate of your faults, the wall of your lamentations, the depository of your duties, who should solve your problems or spare a tire every time to fulfill your responsibilities.

From now on, I declare all independent and self-sufficient adults.”

Everyone at my mom's house was speechless.

From that day on, the family began to function better, because everyone in the house knows exactly what it is that they need to do.

For some of us this is hard, because we've grown up being the caregivers feeling responsible for others. Breathe, release and relax and let them figure it out. They eventually will.

Know What You Don't Need to Know

I've always wanted to know the truth,
Ever since I was a little girl,

But as I've grown older,

I've realized knowing the truth,

Doesn't always make things better.

Know what you don't want to know,

It's a protection for yourself,

Know what you need to know,

And leave the rest up to the One 

Who already knows everything.