The Concert

It came when I didn't expect it
A friend who was once so close
And another who is really an acquaintance,
And someone I didn't know.

It was something,
I had more fun before,
But it is what it was,
And my strength came out before.

There's Something About Kids

There's something about kids
That can brighten your day,
And give you some kind of purpose,
Even at the end of a long week.

Spending time with my friend
And her two daughters
Was the perfect ending
To a tiresome week.

GNO: Girls Night Out

It's always nice to have a girls night out,
Just good friends and fun, no drama or heartache.

Thank you, Jess, for encouraging me to come.
It was a Saturday night to remember.

Welcome Spring

I've enjoyed your sunshine so far -
Please warm up too.
You're my favorite time of year.

The Day Everyone's Irish

For once I really celebrated,

With a friend, her boyfriend, and another girl friend.

Two bars, some food, lots of shots and drinks.

Happy Irish Day to Everyone!

Friday Night Drama

I didn't even want to go last night -
It was my friend, her boyfriend,
Her aunt and her uncle,
So I was the odd one out.

But they picked me up from work,
And on to the concert we went.
It's my favorite Irish band - Scythian.
We had been planning to go since the summer.

Things have been awkward between me and this friend -
At least on my end.
I backed off after I realized she was knowingly being selfish,
And in the last two weeks she has done all the initiating.

But things were pretty good - like old times.
She made sure she knew where I was all night,
And made sure to include me in conversations,
Which tells me she still really cares.

Then I saw that a former friend was also there -
And I ran into her early, in the bathroom.
Then at the end she bombarded me at the bar,
Before moving on to bombard my friend.

We used to all be friends, once upon a time.
And the boyfriend is still friends with her -
It's how they initially met.
But life happens and we have all changed.

Now this once friend wants to get together -
And given my Dinner with a Friend
(Who was also a former friend and now they are friends again),
I don't know what to do.

My only take away from this night of weirdness,
Is to not trust anyone and still hold back,
And to love everyone without expecting
Any of them to love me back.

We All Love Ourselves

It's why we feed ourselves, clothe ourselves,
Try to make ourselves feel better.
We buy ourselves nice things,
And try to foster relationships that make us feel good.

This is not all bad; it is an innate desire in us
To love and to be loved.
But our love is selfish,
And can hurt ourselves and others.

It's why people commit suicide
To put themselves out of their pain.
It's why people leave others out,
And make others bear the burden of their indolence.

I know there are other types of love,
Such as a mother's love to a child,
Which can actually put the child's needs first,
Even at the expense of herself.

But I am just saying that everyone is born
With an innate selfish love that wants the good of themselves,
Even sometimes at the expense of others,
And that is something I have seen a lot of lately.

The First Time

The first time my mother actually admitted
That she and I are very different people,
Was last night, and for once while talking with her,
I was struck with such great relief,
And a feeling of being understood.

I've told her that so much in my life,
But she always denied certain differences,
Thinking we are more the same than we are,
And finally she gets it,
Or at least a part of it that matters.

I've known for so long,
And while this doesn't mean
She doesn't still want me to be someone I'm not
Whether consciously or subconsciously,
It is a great start and gives me hope.

She never likes to be wrong - none of us do,
But finally she recognizes some of our innate differences.
And hopefully there will be more understanding to come,
More understanding of our differences from the both of us,
And how to love each other for who we both are.