A Little Bit of Everything

It was great to see relatives that I like

Yet haven't seen for three years.

My cousin's kids are absolutely adorable, 

Though I may be a little biased.

My friends got into a fight on the Tuesday

Before the wedding

So my nerves were bad

All through that week.

The wedding was great -
My goal was for my sister to enjoy it.
It wasn't my style but it was hers,
And I enjoyed being the princess's sister for a day.

Now that the wedding is over
I might pick up more babysitting jobs,

As the meeting went well last night,

And I could really use the money,

My two friends (the ones who fight sometimes)

And I are going to a Halloween party tomorrow night.

It should be fun (hopefully).

We have a hotel room for the night.

I absolutely love the holidays

And am so glad it's almost Halloween

Then Thanksgiving

Then Christmas.

Life is crazy, fun, not fun, and everything in between!

Lost in a Whirlwind

My sister is getting married on Friday.
The rehearsal dinner is Thursday.
The bachelorette party is Wednesday.
I just found out last night that one cousin and family is coming Tuesday.
Today is Monday.

I still have to shop for make-up and party decorations.
I still have to finalize games for bachelorette party.
I still need to pick out dresses for both Wednesday and Thursday.
I need to go to the liquor store for vodka.

Today my sister and I are going shopping for wedding decorations for the sanctuary
Then finishing the programs for the wedding.
Tonight I am exercising with my friends,
Because this is how I relieve the tension and stress.

I am so grateful for my sister's friend Jessica who is hosting the bachelorette party.
And for picking up the snack tray and wine for Wednesday.
And that my sister did so much of the planning herself (by choice),
And that my friend Aimee gets to be a part of the rehearsal dinner and wedding.
And that I get to be the Maid of Honor.

But it sure is crazy stressful!!!

The Problem with Relationships

They are hard.
They hurt.
They are unpredictable.
Their benefits make the hard times sting even more.
They bring hope but also despair.
They have too many expectations.
They have not enough selflessness.

Are they worth it?
Hell yes.
But they still suck sometimes.

When Helping Annoys

So lately I've been unclear about my future job-wise.
I do love the family I'm with,
And I am not immediately planning to depart,
But the boy is getting older and eventually
I will no longer be needed.

The problem is that my degree is in education,
And I don't want to do that anymore.
And then people, probably with good intentions,
Spout off other jobs that I should try.

I want out of childcare; I know that.
I don't like administration: I also know this.
I need a full time job: This is for sure.
I do not want to work at a church: No I really do not.

It doesn't matter how helpful these friends,
Acquaintances, and even my hairstylist
Intends to be.
There are some clear lines I've drawn for myself
And no matter how much you tell me I'd be good at it
There are some things I know I just do not want to do.

So, I move on, in my in-between job,
Looking for full time placements.
You know, like at a bank
Or the government,
Where I can work my day job
And do my passion (writing) on the side.

Sad Times In a Row

It's just as much a storm inside me as 

it has been on the outside this week.