One of Those Days

This is just one of those days where everything goes wrong.
I should have known when my curling iron wouldn't curl my hair.
It's brand new. And seriously, I've used them quite a bit before.
My sister's cat threw up on the carpet upstairs where I was watching TV. Twice.
I could not get my cat to stay and he bit me. A lot.
I accidentally knocked over my brother's X-box.
Which doesn't work now and will cost at least $100 to fix.
Yep, not my day. And that's only the notable stuff.

The Loss of a Best Friend

Late last year my best friend reconnected with one of her cousins,

Who had been apart because of family feuds.

I think it's great, and would totally love for my cousins to live closer,

So we could hang out and talk like that.

But this month, I've been left behind.

Oh, technically, we are still "best friends",

But we aren't really.

We've known each other since we were ten,

And now again I'm grieving this loss.

Today I didn't show up, didn't text,

And she made no effort to contact me.

Before her cousin, she would have been all over it,

Making sure I was okay.

The last few times I've seen her she's been distant,

Pointedly shooing me off so they could plan a vacation I wasn't invited to,

And making their way to exercise on the usual day we hang out.

I know I've been pretty distant last month,

With being sick and not making it out because of the snow.

But I really thought this month would be a great one,

And now, it's almost the end, and I feel like I've lost her forever.

Inside

I cannot deal with this,
So inside myself I go,

Away from all the pain,
From the prying eyes of judgement.

Off

Off to a busy start in this cold new year!