Monday, October 22, 2018

It Will Hurt Me

It will hurt me but I'm for her
In her relationship with him.
As long as he treats her well
Which he has so well so far.

I want to not like him,
And yet I do,
In everything I hear about him,
And in everything I've seen.

And even in my nightmares,
I pray God's Will Be Done,
Because that is all that matters,
No matter what else occurs.

Am I afraid of losing a friend?
Yes, hell yes I am.
But I cannot wish her anything
But the best that can be done.

And even in the trials,
I know that God is with me.
And even if I lose all single friends,
God has a plan for me.

My friend confirmed my thoughts today,
Even if they don't come true.
But it shows we think in unison
And I will miss this single duo.

But God has more planned for me,
This I am one hundred percent sure of,
Just like I had to give up the one friend,
In order to achieve what I have with another.

The future is unknown,
And it really will always be.
But I know the one who has gone before,
And has paved a path for me.


Tuesday, October 16, 2018

I Want to Run

I want to run and not stop.
I want to sleep and never wake up.
Who is this version of myself running around?
No one knows. On the outside, I hide her well.