I Don't Know Where You Are in This

I don't know where You are in this,
I don't see Your hand.

All I have are questions,

And unanswered plans.

I thank You for the good vacation,

Even though it was long.

Next time I want more time with each,

On two separate occasions.

I don't know who I am,

I wish I knew what I was about.

All I know are glimpses I've seen,

But the rest is, "I don't know."

This is where I am,

At least that I know.

But that doesn't help me day to day,

Or fulfill the longing within me.

I still pray You have planted a seed,

Please still help me, even in my selfishness.

I don't even understand what I deserve - both bad and good,

But I know that You are fair and compassionate.

I know that You are all powerful,

And I know that You are Good,

Though it is sometimes hard to believe.

This is just being honestly understood.

Who are You?

Why do I even ask?

People make me question everything,

And yet You are my only Hope.

Where are You?

Who am I?

These are questions I ask.

Please help her to be the last idol.