The Boy Problem

They are jerks who lie.

{Obviously not all of them, but the ones who I'm referring to, yes.}

That is all.

What I Will Say

For the first time in years, we went away for Thanksgiving.

And when anyone asks, I will say it was good,

It was fine, it was nice.

I will tell of the nice apartment where my sister

And her husband live,

And of the nice apartment we rented

To spend the nights.

I might tell of taking a 4 hour nap

On Thanksgiving day 

Between brunch and the turkey dinner

And possibly relate how my mother

Threatened to ban me from playing games

When I got a little too competitive.

I still think it's funny that my phone 

Was taken away during the meal,

Even though it was like the only time

One of my friends texted me.

I will not tell how I cried off an on,

How I felt like my friends forgot all about me,

And how I really wished I could've shopped

But we didn't because I was the only one who wanted to.

I will not say how much my brother irritated me,

And how I felt like he was picking on me.

I will also not relate how I felt like I annoyed him,

When I could see it but just couldn't help myself.

I will tell of how I enjoyed visiting with my

Sister and new brother-in-law;

And that is not inaccurate.

But the sad moments were more than the happy,

And the storm has been more than the calm.

But that would hardly be taken well,
When asked to recount how it went.

How To Pick A Fight

Accuse.
Hold Grudges.
Yell.
Blame.

This all happened, the weekend after one of their birthdays.
They are not speaking now,
And I am brokenhearted.

My friends, please come back.
Forgive, and be healed.
Tell each other when you are hurt,
Instead of holding it in.

Then life will be much better.
For everyone.

I don't know if they will ever come back.
I don't know what will happen and it terrifies me.
And right now, I have a huge sad place in my heart.

Life

It's Complicated.

A Little Bit of Everything

It was great to see relatives that I like

Yet haven't seen for three years.

My cousin's kids are absolutely adorable, 

Though I may be a little biased.

My friends got into a fight on the Tuesday

Before the wedding

So my nerves were bad

All through that week.

The wedding was great -
My goal was for my sister to enjoy it.
It wasn't my style but it was hers,
And I enjoyed being the princess's sister for a day.

Now that the wedding is over
I might pick up more babysitting jobs,

As the meeting went well last night,

And I could really use the money,

My two friends (the ones who fight sometimes)

And I are going to a Halloween party tomorrow night.

It should be fun (hopefully).

We have a hotel room for the night.

I absolutely love the holidays

And am so glad it's almost Halloween

Then Thanksgiving

Then Christmas.

Life is crazy, fun, not fun, and everything in between!

Lost in a Whirlwind

My sister is getting married on Friday.
The rehearsal dinner is Thursday.
The bachelorette party is Wednesday.
I just found out last night that one cousin and family is coming Tuesday.
Today is Monday.

I still have to shop for make-up and party decorations.
I still have to finalize games for bachelorette party.
I still need to pick out dresses for both Wednesday and Thursday.
I need to go to the liquor store for vodka.

Today my sister and I are going shopping for wedding decorations for the sanctuary
Then finishing the programs for the wedding.
Tonight I am exercising with my friends,
Because this is how I relieve the tension and stress.

I am so grateful for my sister's friend Jessica who is hosting the bachelorette party.
And for picking up the snack tray and wine for Wednesday.
And that my sister did so much of the planning herself (by choice),
And that my friend Aimee gets to be a part of the rehearsal dinner and wedding.
And that I get to be the Maid of Honor.

But it sure is crazy stressful!!!

The Problem with Relationships

They are hard.
They hurt.
They are unpredictable.
Their benefits make the hard times sting even more.
They bring hope but also despair.
They have too many expectations.
They have not enough selflessness.

Are they worth it?
Hell yes.
But they still suck sometimes.