I Am Thankful

I am thankful that though my understandings of life come and go,
There is Someone who always understands everything.

This past year I lost the relationship with my best friend,

My First BFF who was always in the back of my mind.

I should have connected more with her.

I know she is hurting and I know she is lashing out.

I know I didn't give her all she needed -

But I gave her all I knew how.

I am thankful we are at least social media friends.

I fought for that and that seems to be how she wants it.

This past year I found out that my former mentor

Was and is not who he said he was. 

The façade he carried is that of a psychopath;

There are really no words to adequately describe

Both the positive impact he made on me,

And the betrayal of those trusted times.

I am still not truly done processing it.

I am just thankful that he is not, and never has been, my whole life. 

This past year I went back to church,

As someone engaged for the first time in ten years.

I find it interesting that God brought me back to church

The decade anniversary of when I left the church. 

Sunday mornings did not last; I have not found anything there worth it. 

But I do find value in the people I have met and are getting to know.

I am thankful for those people. 

It has given me hope in the church for the first time in years.