It's Hard To Say Goodbye

Today was the last full day at my current job,
The first real office job I ever had.
It has been amazing, even during the frustrating moments,
And in many ways I am not ready to move on.

I never felt like it was my final job,

Though in this time I was not eager to move on;

God can be funny like that - 

Shaking our worlds when we least expect or want it.

At least I am still working there part time for now,

And my boss has been amazing.

I've let her in more in the past two weeks than ever before,

Probably because I finally feel like I can.

I've been there almost four years -

The longest same job I've ever had.

I always wanted to be the person who was at a job 10+ years,

But so far that has yet to happen.

Am I making a mistake?

In the depths of my soul, I know I am not,

Though my emotions definitely think so.

I just desire and need to be wherever God wants me.