I Hate This Need

Since when did I become so social?
Since when did I become even more reliant upon other people?

In truth, I have always needed other people.
I have always had potential to be a social butterfly,
To dislike times alone where no one can see me.

I have stopped denying it.
I have kind of embraced it.
But I hate this need to be busy every night of the week,
Which is so opposite of my many years
Where I guarded my time alone so carefully.

I still like sleeping.
It is a hobby of mine.
But I like socializing more,
And I hate this need of mine.