It Couldn't Come at a Better Time

The cruise couldn't come at a better time.

I leave this weekend with two of my girlfriends, 

And my boyfriend and I just broke up.

I Don't Know What We Are

Boyfriend and girlfriend?
Just each other's date?
I know we are both serious,
But that could mean many things.

And then there's the friend,
Who always wants to double.
Who liked him first
Then he chose me.

And when the last one and I ended,
She encouraged me to move on,
To like him,
To go out with him.

And I did.
After she told him I liked him too.
After he got the courage to do something about it.
After a couple weeks of being in-between.

But now I don't know what we are,
And what my friend is really feeling.
We are both busy but him especially.
And it's all so confusing.

Ode To April

Sometimes a girl's just gotta cry.
Also, it's snowing again.

I Met A Guy

There's still one that's good in the world.

Winter is Here

And it should go away.

The Phone is my Lifeline

I know it's not healthy, I know it's not good,
But just like almost everyone else I rely on my phone.

It is my search for answer to questions,
Music when I am bored,
The fastest way to communicate with my friends,
And the tool to keep up on others' lives.

It is my notepad, my book, my ever ready camera.
And most of all, it serves as the medium to which I turn
When I am bored, hurt, excited, scared, or on the run.

So when it decides to start going out, like it did tonight,
It's no wonder I panicked.

My one friend saw and took me to the Verizon store.
We'll get a new one, she said.

You don't have insurance for it, the store employee said.
It's under my dad's account, and need his authorization to add it.
Why he didn't get it in the first place is now frustrating to me.
So no new phone tonight.

Then a boring football game until the 4th quarter,
With friends and acquaintances,
And the guy I'm currently seeing.

Slow service, lots of talking.
Phone off, phone on.
Football watching, boredom plays,
Exciting end, preoccupied friends.

And now I am home with a messed up phone,
And can't do much of anything with it until tomorrow.

Clean Eating

This past fall I completed my first clean eating challenge.
I wasn't sure I'd do it again, but come last week, I felt really crappy
And was just ready to eat right to feel better again.

So, now I am on a team with the same friend who recruited me,
And another friend and her sister-in-law.

Raw week sucks, always. No getting around it.
But it is important in detoxing from sugar.

I never thought I'd do this, but I am very happy I did.
I also started running, and participated in my first 5k in November.

All in all, clean eating signifies what can be done with my life,
And what, thanks to my one friend, I will try and continue to achieve.