A Year Ago

A year ago I lived with a coworker.
It was nice but expensive.
I had a full time job.
I miss the money but not the work.
A year ago I was planning a trip to Disneyland.
I am still saving for this trip.
I had not seen as many cool shows.
And I only got to spend weekends with my brother.
A year ago things were better with my bff,
But we have both grown.
A year ago
Things weren't as good
And they were better.

Entitlement

I used to see this when I worked in retail,
But I've seen it a lot in my current life too.
People have this entitlement problem
That makes them say they deserve all these things.
Others are responsible for providing for them.
Others are responsible for making them happy.
If they buy something and it is not perfect,
They blame the customer service person.
Nothing is their fault,
And others are supposed to pay at their expense.
To that, I just have to shake my head,
And cover my face.
Because I cannot change them,
Or make them see their arrogance slash stupidity.

Sick

At least there are two good things about being sick:
I get to watch TV all day
And sleep as much as I want.

RIP Orion

My brother's cat Orion was put down today.
We didn't plan on it,
But he started throwing up blood this morning.
He's been steadily declining in health lately,
And lived a full life of 18 years.
But he will still be missed.

Waiting

I'm waiting for this DVD set to go down in price, so I can buy it.
I'm kicking myself for waiting when it was under $20. Now it's almost $40.

One of Those Days

This is just one of those days where everything goes wrong.
I should have known when my curling iron wouldn't curl my hair.
It's brand new. And seriously, I've used them quite a bit before.
My sister's cat threw up on the carpet upstairs where I was watching TV. Twice.
I could not get my cat to stay and he bit me. A lot.
I accidentally knocked over my brother's X-box.
Which doesn't work now and will cost at least $100 to fix.
Yep, not my day. And that's only the notable stuff.

The Loss of a Best Friend

Late last year my best friend reconnected with one of her cousins,

Who had been apart because of family feuds.

I think it's great, and would totally love for my cousins to live closer,

So we could hang out and talk like that.

But this month, I've been left behind.

Oh, technically, we are still "best friends",

But we aren't really.

We've known each other since we were ten,

And now again I'm grieving this loss.

Today I didn't show up, didn't text,

And she made no effort to contact me.

Before her cousin, she would have been all over it,

Making sure I was okay.

The last few times I've seen her she's been distant,

Pointedly shooing me off so they could plan a vacation I wasn't invited to,

And making their way to exercise on the usual day we hang out.

I know I've been pretty distant last month,

With being sick and not making it out because of the snow.

But I really thought this month would be a great one,

And now, it's almost the end, and I feel like I've lost her forever.