Genius Kids

The school systems are just not designed for them,
When they get things after one or two times,
And the rest of us don't.

Also, the school system,
With it's "gifted" programs,
Give some a false sense of being intelligent,
And ironically does not cater to the geniuses.

In the Worst of Times

Even in the worst of times,
In the worst of the worst fights -
And there were a few -
I knew I would feel horrible
If I didn't make things right with my parents
And something really bad happened to them.

Also, I really want to be a Foster.

Lately

Lately I've been spending my days -
ALL my days off -
Sleeping or reading,
But mostly sleeping.

Partly because I take medicine that makes me tired,
(And I forgot last night, which meant
Today I was vividly LESS tired),
And partly because my visions are blurred.

By visions, I mean what I want to do with my life,
What to work on in my spare time.
Library books have made me focused on reading
In a timely manner,
But I need to do my passionate love: Writing.

So I kind of started again today -
Maybe finally I'm out of my funk.
But either way it's good to have today off,
Without medicine so I could get my drive back.

It will be a hard road but
I want to.

We'll see.

Adults Keeping Secrets

When I was a kid and teen,
I hated this.
But now I am in a position
Where I do this myself.

I was around 20 when someone I've known for years
Admitted he suspected a certain person of
Possibly verbally abusing me.
He really knew it, but just did not have the evidence.

At first I was really mad that he kept it a secret.
Now I'm more or less past it,
After many years of counseling.

But I really don't think I can tell the girl I know,
I understand why she doesn't like her stepmom,
And I am with her in not truly trusting anyone
Except one special friend.

Even though I do, and I am.

It's My Day Off

I've said this a lot lately,
To inquiring minds who want to know
Why I'm still in my Pjs,
On my phone playing candy crush,
Or reading and writing away.

Not everyone values downtime like I do.
I value my friends,
but I am not a true extrovert.
I need my alone time.

So while it gets annoying to have to
Repeatedly say this,
It's my day off
And I am doing no "work".

It's Cold Outside

But we had things to do.

On another note, they're saying this won't be a mild winter
like the last couple.

I'm not sure I want to know what that means.

Welcome

Welcome, 2014.

I just wish I wasn't so sick.